Church's family event for Guy Fawkes
anyway, despite the wind n sand ... the celebration was awesome :> felt so excited that night hearing Elevate(youth ministry) singing n shouting for Christ.. i felt so old seeing those young ppl sitting down n shouting with energy .. ya ... i can feel their energy even when they're just sitting down ... ahhh ... i felt so so so old ....
despite feeling old , i had fun:> We danced n sang songs n screamed in high pitch at the beach !!
Still , i'm not very sure if i'm really happy deep down or i was just pretending to be happy ... i'm not too sure about that till now ... i found myself leaving others behind n step forward to the sea to take a deep breath , i tried to forgot everything n just wanted to spend time with God ... i guess i just need to go into my own solitude ... a few minutes after that , ching just went back to her frens n laughed n danced .... i'm not quite sure which is the real me ? imagine if none of my frens were there , i guess i'll just spend all my time with Him n i'm not too sure which situation will i prefer....
There are just too many obligations being among my frens ... especially when my frens go to church or join any church events ... i need to make sure that they get to meet up with KIWIS ... need to make sure that they r feeling comfortable ... on the other hand i also need to make sure that my KIWI frens feel comfortable too ... n i'm not very good in making ppl feeling comfortable .. there r just too many things to learn ...
Yesterday ..
i went out the whole day to distribute flyers coz my church is having a 3rd anniversary celebration at the opera house , it was a tiring day ... me n Esther Yap gave out about 300 flyers to halls n flats ... it was Guy Fawkes day yesterday ... i should be at the waterfront beside the beach enjoying the fireworks ... but .. when the fireworks were blasted ... i was busy sticking posters at the bus stop ... couldn't see any fireworks ... could just hear the blasting sound ... but i was very joyful deep down inside :> coz imagine ppl going to the opera house after seeing the poster :> i know i'll feel regret if i was watching fireworks coz i've something more important to do .... just imagine 10% of the ppl we invited turned up ... expanding God's kingdom n seeing God's lost sheep coming back to him :> seeing ppl raising their hands during alter call will be much more awesome than seeing the fireworks :>
May God blees all the ppl who have seen the flyers :>