Mixture of problems n happiness

I'm planning to post about my mission trip to china initially .But Elaine called n we were on the phone for 48 minutes so i'm kinda lazy now:P hehehe. This gonna be a tough week for everyone in ICf coz we r having ASIAN BANQUET on saturday . I can feel her stress n burden as i'm talking to her n listening to her , i can understand the stage she is going thru . Dealing with ppl is not always easy, especially when u r asking ppl to help u up in doing things n wanted to make sure they r doing the things u've planned. That's what happened last saturday to me n Esther yap n step.

It was our service day at vic central(halls) . What we r basically doing is to serve the students there:> It's organised by our church life group . What we have on that day - cleaning dishes for students, CV advice, Beauty corner(facial, massage ...), FOOD, introduction to KIWI culture. It turned out not as good as we expected . Well, i don't really wanna go into details about how bad it was but i've learnt something.Serve with the right heart n with passion :>

I've often examine myself when i'm talking to my frens or when i'm in my life group or when i'm in church serving. What is my intention?Sometimes ppl get used to doing the same thing everytime n often forget why we r doing it . It's the same as serving in His kingdom. I always have to remind myself that i'm doing all these for Him out of a willing heart but not obligation. Sometimes i felt disappointed with ppl's reaction, then i have to remind myself again , i'm not here to please ppl coz i'll lose focus if i'm here to please ppl.

I've learnt a lot from the ppl around me. Saw things that i'm not happy with n i'm glad that i'm not doing the wrong thing as they r. I'm going thru some struggles lately.Was talking to someone lately n our discussion deteriorated into some sort of "argument" Was quite disappointed when i saw the division in His body. Some ppl wanted to draw a line in the ministries( church n others) they r involved in. The agenda in different ministry might be different but i just don't like it when ppl r trying to draw a line there saying that u can't serve well here coz u don't know our agenda. I mean who r we to judge ppl here? Seriously if that person comes with a willing heart n a passion to serve in whatever ministry , it's bad to chase that person away just because u think that person can't understand ur agenda. What about the unity in Christ mentioned in the book of Ephesians. Christianity is not about the amount of knowledge u have about the bible , it's about applying ur bible knowledge into ur life , it's about ur relationship with Him . God doesn't see u as a mature or a good christian by seeing how much bible knowledge u have . Trust me , the Devil knows the bible better then u n me.

Was feeling heart broken seeing this division that's happening around me . Ppl might not have notice it but i knew it so well n He knows it as well. Thank God that He opened my eyes n let me see a clearer picture. The book - The Final Quest has reminded me a lot of things . It 's talking about the war these days. It's not an ordinary war but it's a war between christians itself. We often think that we know a lot about God but forgot about the humbleness that we should have n our religious spirit n self-rightousness got so deeply inside us that we r not aware of. Then the war started to began when u feel insecure that ur "ppl" will be drawn by others. But aren't we all His ppl?Are we not serving for his kindgom's sake? well.. if u r reading this ,u may not understand what i'm saying but those who understand can u pls pray for those who r under this bondage n pray for love among christians :>

The things that i'm happy about is that even though i'm facing many problems but God has been so faithful n He placed ppl around me to support me :> Special thanks to Ricky for his encouragement n willingness to spend time with us :> sorry for forcing u to watch the singaporean movie- i'm not stupid . To justin who is in US .. we miss u n i know u miss us too :>
On the other hand , i'm glad that esther yap has recovered :> CHC rocks aye ? thanks to limin who introduced me to this website :>Thank you to yi shan as well . i know ur time is very precious but u r still willing to listen to me for about 3 and a half hours :> u r a great listener n a great brother :>