1cross+3nails=4given

国道客运--〉台北车站--〉西门--〉公馆

2006-11-20T06:00:00.000+13:00

hmmm.. finally after three years, i got to meet up with 忠廷. Meeting up with my highschool mate in a different country - i feel a bit weird. But overally i had a very happy day!!!忠廷 is such a typical chong hwa guy - easily bossed by gals(从不反击 - 很有中华精神).Hence, i bossed him around the whole day ... hmmmm , well i didn't boss him around la he just say yes to what ever i 've said la. Ha ha ... He is a very nice guy that won't feel paiseh or 不耐烦going into any stalls. so ya ... went shopping the whole day..

An incident that happened today-
my phone died in the afternoon( out off battery), i can't contact my aunt to tell her to meet at 校园书坊。 The only solution is to recharge my phone!! But how?? If i'm in welly or kl -- no solution. But in taiwan- when there's a will there's a way!!! I was actually a bit worry in the first place but i do know ppl can charge their phone in public places, but i've never experience it in real life . Told my fren that maybe i should pray about it coz we can't find anywhere to recharge. Right after praying, heard him saying "啊！！！那里！！"at Last we've found it!! Thank you God!!!God u r awesome!!! seven!! I love u!!!Outside 7-11 ----- 手机充电，3个步骤，10分钟！！！seven真是应有尽有！！最后我的手机复活了！！This will only happen in taiwan!!!

All in all i had a fun day !!! We talked a lot a lot today , talk about what we've done in highschool---
1. all then names that we gave teachers: malay teacher- 奶奶，办主任陈健汉-doraemon, physic teacher-阿杜
2.how naughty we r during April Full - we changed class with 高三理二
3.The naughty things that we did in class- 上课时传纸条，跟隔壁同学也要传！！zha dao!!跟老师顶嘴，考试作弊，抄功课。。。。数也数不尽！！
4.开班会-全班一起boom班长！！超爽！！
5。运动会-最爽的一天，因为不用上课！！在stadium merdeka 混！

中学的回忆真是数也数不尽！！这种回忆跟旧同学一起聊起时是最甘甜的！！

i had a great day not because of how fun taipei is, it's because i enjoyed going out with my highschool mate, it's because i enjoyed talking about highschool life!!

Special thanks to 忠廷 who took me around!!N bought me 章鱼烧，锅贴和甜不辣！！

My first week in Taiwan

2006-11-18T04:20:00.000+13:00

hmmm... can't believe i've left that windy city for about a week already.Taiwan is not as cold as i've expected (It's always very cold when i got here- CNY) , Taiwan is still very polluted(getting worse), the amount of motorbike on the road is shocking, the way how ppl drive is shocking. I went on a motorbike ride with my aunt , hmmm, very very ....

I've learnt a lot a lot in a week-
1. i love 7-11 , i reckon the starmart from welly should sell things like i can get from 7-11, they have steamboat here la!!
2. hospital can be turned into shopping mall- why??? the number of buses u can hop on to the hospital is like 10 times more than the buses in wellington where u wanna go to willis st. The foodstalls at the basement of the hospital- haha.... add up the cafes on courtney place x5. i have eaten there everyday for a week already n have different food everytime, shocking aye??
3. I've learnt more of hakka, amazingly i managed to pick up what my mum n her family say, YEAH!!! mum can no longer say secrets in front of me!!!
4. I've learnt that i'm very blessed. looking at the ppl at the hospital, i feel very sad, i've never realize how many ppl in the world r battling for their lives, n there i was always complaining about this n that. never appreciate what i have!!!
5. I've learnt that adults r very complicated!!! i love kids more!!! i enjoy playing with my cousins , pure and innocent kids!!!
6. I've learnt more about myself n my mum.

Things that i've knew before i came
1. i got to watch lots of news- silly pollitic news about chen shui bian and ma ying jiu!!! n more over- ma ying jiu's dog! wu yan- speechless!!
2. i got to watch lots of entertainment shows- hei she hui mei mei hen ben!!! seriously they don't even know how much is cos 60 .... la la la ... i'm speechless!!!
3. i'm going to miss welly- i seriously miss welly!!! i miss my church, my lifegroup, my flatties, my friends!!! i miss the fresh air , the big fluffy white clouds n blue blue sky!!!
4. i'm going to eat a lot!!! haha..... ya well i've eaten - smelly toufu, o a jian, hakka tang yuan, dao fu fa, guo tie, dan bing, fan tuan .....etc

My wish-
1. My family will be able to come to GOD!!!! experience that Jesus Christ is the one n only living God, a God that gives life, a God that gives hope. God that is faithful n full of grace.

My heart-
1. I wanna thank God!! He is truly a faithful God!!! God gave me a chance to go to church !! In fact more than that at the lowest moment in taiwan God sent lots of ppl to pray for me - ppl that i don't even know. I've realized the unity in God's kingdom!!! How God is able to use his children that made themselves available to Him. He knows my deepest need even i didn't say it out He already knew!!! Thank you God, thank you. I don't know what to say but thank you!!!

2006-11-05T13:18:00.000+13:00

guy fawkes

finally we've made it!! up on mt vic. the best view ever!!!

How i wish

2006-11-03T02:47:00.002+13:00

TAG: Five Simple Pleasures in Life

1. enjoying a good book under the warm sun without worrying what to do the next day

2. no exams, no lab reports, endless drama series with the heater beside me

3. not worrying what to cook n able to have good food without me cooking- hmmm i'm thinking about lo mai gai now!!

4. having C n K everyday

5. watching fireworks in the snow

tagging: no one .. who ever wants to be tagged can tag themselves la

Two more to go

2006-11-03T01:05:00.000+13:00

hmmm... it's a crazy student life.. i've still got two more exams to go n i'm still here procrastinating. Well, i just don't feel like studying but i know soon or later i have to dig into my notes n textbooks... what's next?? Gene n hereditery expression and Immunology .. i know .. they sounded complicated.. that's why i'm still here typing =p

anyway, just to update a bit of what's up lately. As most of u who read my blog will know that i'm going on a mission trip to Thailand from 27/11 to 21/12. For more information of this mission trip check out phil's blog - http://www.thaiphil.blogspot.com and leave a comment if u love to n phil will be real happy about it :> James(our team leader) said that we will be setting up OUR mission trip blog.. ya .. it's OUR!!! not phil's!!! =p ya well , we will be posting stuff on OUR blog when we r in thailand :>

U never know what God is planning. n His plan is always perfect n it's always best for u. I'll be going back to m'sia on 9/11 then to taiwan on 10/11, grandpa is sick n hospitalised . He is not a christian yet , so ya .. if u r reading this .. can u remember him in your prayer ?? The reason of me going back to taiwan is to spend more time with him n hopefully i have a chance to share to him about God n he will receive Christ as his Lord and Saviour!!! All i can do is to make myself available to let HIM use me :>
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— Eph 2:8 God's salvation is a free gift for each n everyone. I've been saved not by my own good work but by His grace. There is nothing for me to boast about.
Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God. Eph 5:1-2 i know as i'm back in taiwan or malaysia or even in thailand. Ppl will be watching my life ,i can preach a better sermon with my life than with my lips. therefore i'll constantly remind myself of this verse being an imitator of God that my family will experience God thru me, God is really amazing that He is willing to use me, i'm nothing better than anyone else n yet He is merciful enough to use me, God is so so great.

Love is like

2006-11-03T00:58:00.000+13:00

Love is like a snake – it’s blind
Love is like matches – dangerous to play with
Love is like a wild animal – kept it confined
Love is like a gun – it can backfire
Love is like a diamond – it will cost you a lot
Love is like a bush fire – it can spread quickly
Love is like a prison – it takes away your freedom
Love is like a whirlwind – you’re sucked into a storm
Love is like an illusion – very deceptive
Love is like electricity – it has shocking consequences
Love is like flying – you can expect turbulence
Love is like money – you always want more
Love is like kids – very demanding
Love is like a hole – you can get hurt falling in
Love is like water – it can get hot or turn cold
Love is like a rollercoaster – it will throw you around
Love is like a magnet – opposites attract
Love is like a headache – it plays on your mind
Love is like the sun – you can’t always see or feel it
Love is like women – very complicated
Love is like a garden – it’s constant work
Love is like honey – sweet but messy
Love is like air – you can’t live without it
Love is like a footpath – trodden on often
Love is like a mirror – who you are comes out
Love is like a mushroom – it can be poisonous
Love is like a car – if it moves too fast it crashes
Love is like TV – be careful what you believe
Love is like a boat – if you fall out you feel vulnerable
Love is like blood – it’s pumped by the heart

Love is like ...... well .. the above words were not written by me ... sent by someone.. i find some of them quite true .. but i'm not quite sure about the love is like women bit ... =p

无力

2006-10-17T09:13:00.000+13:00

感觉真得很累了。虽然这个学期已经到了尾声，可是我为什么没有那种轻松自在的感觉呢？
我的心如同今早的天气一样冰冷，为什么呢？希望天气越冷越好，那冰冷的狂风应该可以把我吹得清醒一点吧！！可是我的希望落空了，因为我的心情还是一样很糟糕！！很无奈！！

我需要的是上帝的恩典与怜悯。很多时候我很想告诉神对不起，可是我有口难言。我不想告诉他对不起后又从犯错误，我知道现在的我会一而再，再而三地“重蹈覆辙”。

我无力了，我需要上帝的力量！！

为主来梦想

2006-09-17T01:46:00.000+12:00

相片里儿时的模样
记录着年少的时光
曾经在你我的心中
要登上月亮要飞越太平洋

多年后我们都成长
告别了青涩和迷惘
曾经在你我的心中
编织的梦想是否已遗忘

人生的理想是为主发光
拭去了泪水使我们更坚强
路依然漫长别失去盼望
痛苦时记得有主在你身旁

为主来梦想为主来发光
虽然有挫折但我不用沮丧
主是我力量主指引方向
我们的日子有梦想有灿烂的阳光

A busy month to go

2006-09-17T00:54:00.000+12:00

well... my title pretty much sums up what will happen to me for this month - i'll be busy!!! so , if i didn't update my blog.. sorry la!! oh well .. i've been thinking of updating my blog a few times but i just couldn't find a long enough time to write stuff, sorry for the ppl who came by n see nothing updated ..

Well, to those who don't know what's my plan for summer ... i'll be going on a mission trip to THAILAND!!!! YEAH!!! i'm super excited n happy n looking forward to it!!! It's gonna be real interesting... the team itself is interesting coz johnny is going .. hmmm... we r going to have lots of fun!!!johnny is going to do lots of crazy stuff n i'll follow him .. haha... coz i like fun stuff!!!

I think God really shaped me this year. I've became more positive nowadays. Knowing that every trials n testing in life is a chance for God to shape me :> i kinda like trials n testings after overcoming them. It's really amazing that God can turn bad things good...we will never have an anticlimactic ending if we have faith n believe in God!!

My new mission for this remaining semester is to be light n salt among my coursemate!!! I've managed to invite some of them to a chinese church event n i'll spend more of my time hang out with them!!!pray for me ok?? n pray for them as well!!

2006-09-02T16:38:00.000+12:00

最近发生了一些事儿，更深地领悟了一个道理，原来朋友是需要一起分享快乐与悲伤的。一起走过欢乐的草原与阴暗的幽谷，不顾一切的自持对方，这样的友情才是无价的。

starting over from the beginning

2006-09-01T19:24:00.000+12:00

Should i start it over from the beginning or not?After talking to limin this question came to my mind. I've come to this stage once again, asking myself is God number 1 in my life? Now i'm here, i've tried my best to vanquish my fear n the tendency to run away. I've felt that i only came to God when i need Him. I seldom come to God because i wanna just purely spend time with Him or just want to listen to God. So often i came to Him coz i've got something to tell Him but i never go to Him n ask Him what do u wanna tell me today? What do u feel like telling me?

I've been so so busy lately that i tot what He wants me to do is to serve Him but i've come to realization that He wants me to spend time with Him. Sorry God, i've forgotten about u. Pls help me, i need to come back again. I'm sorry that i'm not right with u.

Coming of AGM

2006-08-09T10:14:00.000+12:00

Years of serving in ICF on committee has come to an end. Was asked to write an AGM report but i've been procrastinating .. haha.. ever the last person who send in reports .. sorry Jan ... ya well .. i've always dislike writing reports especially lab reports ... anyway ..that's another story.Two years of serving on committee has been a great journey for me.As a freshman in Uni i'm so blessed to find a place where i feel belongs to.The cliche saying of ICF as "home away from home" has actually expressed my simple but yet pure feelings towards ICF.I'll always miss the times when we had committee retreat in Raumati Beach - the alcohol ,choco fondue, grabble, Aik Win n his dodgy words from grabble, Jan n her butter, Leesha n her licking the choco fondue pot, Esther n her alcohol (=p), James n his song I AM COW last but not least - KAREN LAU n her KAREN LAU song ( she loves the song aye ??)
What about me ??? hmmmmm ... i think it'll be ching n the committee :>

After some times of procrastinating here comes my AGM report -----
It has been an amazing journey for me to serve in committee for another year. No longer the silly girl sitting there saying nothing during committee meeting.(while.. sometimes I do just sit there and ponder over nothing =p ) But ICF has become something special in my heart. God has place one important thing called- MISSION through ICF into my heart.
ICF has always been my support in life. The anticipation of meeting with my fellow brothers and sisters every Friday night is great. I’ve always have things to look forward to like Easter camp, conference, ski trip and conference again =p.
God is amazing enough to tell me that I don’t have to be perfect or full of experience to serve Him. God seek for availability but not ability. As long as people have a willing heart, our almighty God is able to use and transform that person. Just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many." Matthew 20:28
Through out this year I’ve learnt a lot about myself and God. I’ve learnt that I’m no superman( I mean superwoman =p ) , but God is still willing to use the imperfect me to reach out to His creations. I’ve learnt that my love for the people around me is not enough as I’m a selfish person, but God is so merciful that He did not smite me but loves me. I’ve learnt that it’s always hard to meet people’s expectation, but God told me never to impress people but to live for Him alone. I’ve learnt that making decisions is difficult, but God said it’s ok to make mistake and what He has done on the cross is enough. I’ve learnt that I love mission, I would love to be a missionary in the future, and God is willing to give me a bigger dream if I rely on Him but not on my own strength.
A Christian life is a journey with God which will never end. Though I might leave ICF one day but the things that God has planted into my heart through ICF will stay forever.

Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God. Ephesians 5:1-2
-------THE END------

The end is just the end of serving as a committee but not the end serving as a servant of God :>

感触

2006-08-01T16:33:00.000+12:00

百般的感触---
转眼间七月过去了，时间冲冲地从我的掌心中溜走了。不尽让我会想起这七个月来我在主里学了什么？
我学会了依赖，不依赖人而是依赖我那拥有世上所有权柄的万王之王，万主之主。
我学会了等待，等待着主那最完美的时机，因为我可以信托那替我死的救主！！

心里有许多莫名的气，气自己，气父母，气朋友，也气上帝！！气上帝为什么让不美好的事情发生？为什么让我走那么艰难的路？为什么生活里有那么多烦恼？长大了以后才知道原来人生中有许多事情是没有对与错的。那如果没有对与错，人要怎么选择呢？人问题的所在就是在于怕做错选择，怕负责任。在Aunkland的TSCF conference 里我学会了一样足以改变我人生的道理。原来我做错选择也没有关系。咦？为什么呢？因为上帝知道这世上没有人是完美的，错了后只要来到上帝的面前认错，上帝会原谅你的。到了审判日时，人类会回顾自己的错处在上帝的面前流泪，可是上帝对基督徒的回应将是：“我的孩子，我在十字架上流的宝血已足够了。”

以前的我总以为自己很了不起，现在的我顿悟到了人类的无能。就因为自己所谓的“智慧”给自己添了许多麻烦。可是如果上帝是拥有世上所有权柄的万王之王，万主之主，为什么他不及时控制我呢？原来上帝给了人类选择的权利，人类跟机器人是不同的！话说回来，难道至高无上的上帝没有权力制止不愉快的事情发生吗？圣经里耶利米书22：19记载- 耶和华说，我知道我向你们所怀的意念是赐平安的意念，不是降灾祸的意念，要叫你们末后有指望。不管多么不愉快的事发生，一定要记得上帝有他那美好的旨意。

2006-08-01T15:14:00.000+12:00

korean song

The kiamaians' present for esther n lusi n ying kiat --- the three bears song from full house... check out mel n mel at the back ... can't believe the two cool guys dancing n singing!!!!Go mel Go!!!Aza Aza fighting!!

2006-08-01T14:53:00.000+12:00

Anna playing violin

My cousin anna playing the violin :>

I was so close to death

2006-07-23T23:39:00.000+12:00

I nearly died on friday. What happened was that i hurt my thumb playing basketball that day. Got back home feeling very sick i guess i caught a cold or something like that coz i've been walking in the rain lately. I was boiling my hand warmer in a pot of water n completely forgot about it. Two of my flatties went to bed and so do i. The next thing i knew was ppl waking me up from my sleep n saying the kitchen was on fire. What happened was that my the other flatmate- Esther Yap came home with a fren called Justin. When they were outside the house in the car they heard smoke alarm beeping . Esther opened the door n saw heaps of smoke in the house. They woke my other flatmate up n Justin rushed to the kitchen straight away. They found the pot on fire, the fire was about 0.5m tall. Justin rushed to the toilet n grabbed a towel , soaked it with water n put out the fire. Then they came n woke me up. Everyone who was in the house couldn't hear the smoke alarm , i just can't believe it coz normally when ppl come back home i'll be able to hear the door open n close . I think it's coz of the smoke that made us sleep or i should say faint. Anyway, everyone was shocked but we prayed together at the end in the living room. Praising God n giving thanks to Him for saving our life coz if Esther n Justin didn't come back home on time we will all die coz the bottle or oil was just beside the fire, huge explosion might happen.The timing was just perfect. N also, during day time justin actually came across this paper about fire blanket in his work place. It's definately God that planned to save us. God is great. It's more significant to me that i'm still able to breath here coz of Jesus, He saved me :> i'm more than willing to dedicate my life to Him coz the life i have is actually HIS :> n also i've learnt to be more cautious next time.

A brand new start

2006-06-12T23:27:00.000+12:00

Finished one exam on saturday. It was a difficult subject for me , firstly it was about cell development therefore it covers a whole lot of things , secondly i didn't do too well for my term test , thirdly i had an exam two days before that final. The day before final i studied like i've never studied before burnt my midnight oil till 4am. Prayed a lot as well .. n i've been asking God to be with me as i'm studying ... give me wisdom to know what to study . n lots of frens supported me in prayers as well .. some even flick me a text before my exam. I felt so so touched when i saw my questions during exam. God , You r GREAT!!! All the questions that came out were the things i've studied!!!! Praise the Lord!!! At that very moment, i know God is telling me " i've always been here. I know u've spent a lot of time doing something for me other than studying. Don't worry. I'm here. I'll never leave u nor forsake u. I love u!" WOW ... He is amazing ... i felt His care , love n kindness that day :>
There r many things in life that i took for granted. As simple as the grass n flowers , or even the blue sky with fluffy white clouds n the wide calm sea when the weather is good ,i've never tell God how beautiful they are. I've been reading a book - captivating lately. I've changed by that book. I'm looking at the things i don't usually pay attention too - even if it's just some dry branches or yellow dry leaves on the road after the rain from the night before, i began to adore all these things. Began to ask God everyday - How r u going to romance me today??He is showing His love by the sunshine, by the breeze, by the little yellow flowers beside the road. How can i not notice all these before? Thank God for all these lovely things He has given me in my daily life :> God u r awesome!!!
Today, something else in my heart changed. I've come to realize that a portion of my heart doesn't belong to God. He hit me on my head n finally i got to look into my heart n found that a portion of it was not written- belong's to God. Thank God for the reminder. For years i've never notice how i've been kept bondaged. Thank God that now i can untie this n work freely for God. Finally , after years of struggling , i've come to this point that i can totally make all my decisions freely according to God. Thank you God for His patience for waiting for so many years. Thank you Lord that i've realized this n finally i'm home!!! Like the prodigal son , Lord, i'm back in ur arms :> N i know He was telling me" welcome home, my precious child. " Yes Lord, here is my heart , take it , mould it n break it , refine me so that i can fully reflect ur likeness :> I am complete when i have God :> Love u , my father!!

beginning

2006-06-12T01:18:00.000+12:00

Mr Tricky Ricky bombarded my hp with this poem :> Awesome .. u should keep ur great work up :> fully recommend him to get a blog n post all his poems .Mr poet!!

Beginnings
by Rick Grantham
June 2006

God created the earth by his word
And then the fish, the beast and the bird
Then he formed a man from the dust
And thought he had the whole lot sussed
However the man was all alone
But God decided not to clone
Instead he put the man to sleep
A new creation wouldn’t be cheap
He took a bone from near man’s heart
And made some one so cute and smart
When man awoke to see this girl
His once sound vision began to swirl

Of course the man understood
When God said, “It’s very good.”
Man was thankful for a friend
However, that is not the end.
That is how the world began
Everything was done to plan
Then God put these two folks in Eden
A garden that was good for feedin’
God then said, “Go work and play
But this one thing you must obey
You must be faithful unto me
Eat nothing from that knowledge tree.
Do not even dare to try
The day you eat you’ll surely die.”

Then came pride – with it deceit
One day they both began to eat
And when they ate, they both saw
Things that one cannot ignore
But God knew and would confront
He found them after quite a hunt
They both sought to hide their shame
Then they tried to shift the blame
Because their act was really bad
God now was really mad
This couple then, in sheer disgrace
Were quickly banished from that place
A consequence of their sin
They would not be allowed back in

Outside Eden, each day was worse
The effects of living under a curse
This curse caused a lot of pain
But then came their first son Cain
Followed by another boy
And this again brought more joy
The boys began to live and grow
But then came an awful blow
Hate within him did enable
Cain to kill his brother Abel
God asked Cain, “Where’s your bro?”
Cain said, “God, I don’t know.”
And then Cain, one tone deeper
Said, “Am I my brother’s keeper?”

His answer really was a dud
For on his hands was the blood
So there and then he was undone
And this put him on the run
But though Cain had killed his brother
His folks did produce another
The name Seth, they did employ
To depict this brand new boy
The children though were not just sons
They also had the female ones
The human race did increase
Uncle, aunty, nephew, niece
And as the population grew
Wickedness increased too

And as the people turned from Him
God said, “Let’s see them swim.
I will now destroy mankind
Because of their depraved mind
I will cause a great big flood
And turn all the earth to mud
But I’ve found a righteous guy
I will not let him die
Noah and his family
Have remained true to me
So I’m going to spare this lot
Through this flood not matter what.”
So God said to build a boat
Something that would surely float

This boat will save many lives
Noah, three sons and their wives
The animals will come in pairs
When the flood commencement nears
The boat or ark was huge inside
So high, so long and so wide
Many things would live in there
For about one whole year
And then, when the boat was made
The sunlight, it began to fade
So animals and all his kin
Did then follow Noah in
And in the ark they filled the floor
Then God almighty shut the door.

The rain it then began to drop
For forty days it did not stop
And as the water thundered down
Everything began to drown
The water level rose so high
Until it reached the very sky
But the ark was still afloat
‘Cos God had designed this boat
And in the ark life carried on
Until the water all had gone
Then Noah and his kin stepped out
To stretch and squint and look about
The animals, they came out too
Fresh to start their life anew

Grateful Noah thanked his saviour
For his God had shown him favour
So he humbly built an altar
To his God who did not falter
In response God made a vow
To the end of time from now
This is what He gladly swore
To never flood the earth once more
He put a rainbow in the sky
Of this vow to testify.
Then God in Heaven gave an order
For his view was hugely broader
He said to Noah and his sons,
“Remember than your wives aren’t nuns.

Multiply and fill the earth
You are creatures of much worth
But as the generations passed
So this order did not last
The people pushed their God aside
As they became so full of pride
Let’s build a city they agreed
One dwelling place is all we need
For ourselves we’ll made a name
Our big tow’r will bring us fame
But God himself was no impressed
This sinful pride would be addressed
God came down to see this show
And confuse their one lingo

And so from there the people went
Throughout the earth like they were meant
And that’s the tale of the beginning
From then till now we’ve kept on sinning
But God above retains his smile
He wants to save and reconcile
He sent his only Son to die
To seek, to save and justify
The punishment for sin is death
Literally to lose your breathe
On the cross, Christ paid the price
He was the perfect sacrifice
If, in this son you do believe
A great salvation you’ll receive.

Another great poem

2006-06-08T00:44:00.000+12:00

Just got back from discipleship meeting from mandy's. Had a great time there :> Dinner was awesome . Mandy , Becks n Jono r turning into " eggs" if u know what i mean :> Mandy is really a great leader .. really encouraging :> We wrote down what we want to achieve in lifegroup individually n shared. I've realized that i can't just stop there after writing , i have to live up what i've written :> Have to take good care of my sheep :> Studied for a few hours for my finals tomorrow n came thru ricky's poem to Step. It is really encouraging.

The Lord has given you such a sharp mind, and your heart He has refined.
He sent his only Son for you, to solve a life that is brand new.
A life of love and hope and peace , a glorious life that will not cease.
God always has a listening ear, when you have a humble prayer.
So when you feel you can't go on, stand firm in God, He has not gone.
He will lead you everyday, just surrender, kneel and pray.

Queen's bday

2006-06-07T17:38:00.000+12:00

WOW!! had Ricky n justin staying over at our flat!!! After sunday evening service , we had a great night playing scum( well i don't really enjoy it coz i was the scum!!) . We then woke up at 445am to send step off to m'sia. It's a freezing night!!about 3 degree i guess... Got home n the four of us ( Esther yap , Ricky,Justin n me) had a long chat till 7am. Actually Esther yap did most of the talking . The more she talked the more excited she went. Our initial plan was to let her talk n eventually she'll get tired but we were wrong!!!! We had to cut her off at the end n go to bed.
We woke up at 1230pm. Spending one day with Kiwis .. i found out heaps of differences between culture . They wanted to have meat pie for lunch. Hahaha.... n we(esther yap n me) ??? The story ---- justin:"what do u guys wanna have for lunch? " us:"anything..", ricky:"fish n chips?(he knows i hate it therefore he said it =p)" We went to the tip top. GOSH!!! they r really planning to buy meat pie !! esther yap :" hmmm... y don't u guys get the meat pies n i can have instant noodle for lunch.." me:"yaya... me too(wow... she safed me!!) ... i 'll have instant noodle." Ricky n justin:" r u sure??? u happy to have instant noodles ? " me:" ya ya .. more than happy!!" ... therefore ended up - the asians had instant noodles n kiwis had meat pie ... yucky meat pie ..=p

What happened next??? We had a great time together!! ricky drove us to almost all the bays in welly .... from owhiro bay - island bay -...- oriental bay ( about nine bays ) ... took a lot of pics!!!(sorry i didn't get to attach them here coz ricky had all of them) ... then along the way justin taught us how to surf(verbally la) ... it was freezing cold coz of the wind but i have to say that it was sunny..

Had lasagna for dinner. I have to say - our stomach are so different!! They can't eat much rice n we can't eat much cheese ... haha.... what's the highlight of the day? singing praise songs along the way in the car, watching the waves as they came closer n great time fellowship !!Thank God for these two BB(big bro)

Did u see the mountains tremble?
Did u hear the oceans roar?

three in a line (esther yap , justine n me)... see who's the chicken - afraid of the up coming waves ? ...

jingwen, hwee na(Esther yap), Justin n Ricky ... felt sorry for the two guys ... but it's funny :>

New Zealand - Aotearoa - Land of the long white clouds

great day for surfing , great waves for surfing .. but bad bad freezing temperature :<

awesome snapshot from ricky ... justin.. can we go surfing one day?? i really wanna go... pls.... pls ... pppplllllsss.... =p

lasagna ---- cheese ---- very cheesy =p

Dinner is served... Be our guest! Be our guest! Put our service to the test. Tie your napkin 'round your neck, cherie. And we provide the rest

Reflection

2006-06-07T17:02:00.000+12:00

Had a great weekend. I've received my chromosomes photo from my lecture . Ya man.. aren't they beautiful ?? It makes me think of how precise God is . Imagine if one of the nucleotides on my chromosomes goes wrong? what will happen?? Mutation-cancer-death... No wonder Pastor always emphasize- You r fearfully n wonderfully made. If one day i ever doubt God, i'll look at this pic n it'll remind me that He loves me so so much n He is in control.

The sermon on Sunday hit me. It's about the power of language. Gen 11 is about the ppl trying to build a tower that reaches to the heavens. Then God confused their language n scattered them to stop them from building the tower. God gives us authority right in the beginning of Genesis to name the animals on the earth. This power of language is then misused by human with an impure heart. One verse in Genesis 11 amazed me - verse6 The LORD said, "If as one people speaking the same language they have begun to do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them. WOW!!!! i reflect it to my own life . I ask myself- what kind of tower am i building ? am i building it for God or for myself? If my motive to build this tower is to make a great name for God then nothing is impossible!! I begged God to change me n to remind me that i'm doing all this for Him alone but not for myself . This life that i have is for HIM alone but not for myself. I also asked myself- what kind of language am i speaking in my daily life? is it language of forgiveness, love, thanksgiving? or language of discontentment, conplaint, discouragement ? If i've to reflect Christ likeness in my life i have to speak a language of God - forgiveness, love ....... no more complaint but full of thanksgiving!!! Thank you Lord for this conviction!!

Matt Fielder's visit

2006-05-30T15:15:00.000+12:00

Pic on the left is our church auditorium. It looks a bit cacat from the pic coz ppl r actually packing down. Yeah .. every Sunday 630am, some awesome ppl from church came n set up this auditorium which belongs to a dance school. Pack down every Sunday after the evening service. It takes more than just pastors to run this church. I’ve realized that everyone is important. It’s the same as the Kingdom of God. God sees every individual irreplaceable n precious. Sometimes u might feel inferior but hey, everyone is special n precious in His eyes!!

We had pastor Matt Fielder from planetshakers church Melbourne as our guest speaker last Sunday. The day before that we (international students leaders) had a meeting with him at church office. What he had done for the internationals in planetshakers is incredible. They had events like Mamak night – 800 ppl came!!! Check out this site http://www.planetuni.com.au/. He shared that a student actually came up to him and ask him " why do u love us ? " and his answer was "It’s your fault, u made me fall in love with you. " We laughed after hearing this. But in this 2 hours meeting I can feel this huge loving heart with passion for internationals from Matt. He said" how do u break the culture barriers ? Just by caring about them n loving them !! "

Later that afternoon, we discuss about bgr in DJ group. The main thing I got out of the discussion is that a healthy relationship is a relationship that glorifies God. We have to love God more than our partner. The focus is still on God. Pastor Matt’s preaching on Sunday reassured this point!! When he said that u have to love God more than u love ur bf/gf or husband/wife , the whole DJ group (mel, Melvyn, fran, grace, esther yap, step n me ) which attended the same service exchanged look . hehehe… awesome ….

Mixture of problems n happiness

2006-05-08T23:22:00.000+12:00

I'm planning to post about my mission trip to china initially .But Elaine called n we were on the phone for 48 minutes so i'm kinda lazy now:P hehehe. This gonna be a tough week for everyone in ICf coz we r having ASIAN BANQUET on saturday . I can feel her stress n burden as i'm talking to her n listening to her , i can understand the stage she is going thru . Dealing with ppl is not always easy, especially when u r asking ppl to help u up in doing things n wanted to make sure they r doing the things u've planned. That's what happened last saturday to me n Esther yap n step.

It was our service day at vic central(halls) . What we r basically doing is to serve the students there:> It's organised by our church life group . What we have on that day - cleaning dishes for students, CV advice, Beauty corner(facial, massage ...), FOOD, introduction to KIWI culture. It turned out not as good as we expected . Well, i don't really wanna go into details about how bad it was but i've learnt something.Serve with the right heart n with passion :>

I've often examine myself when i'm talking to my frens or when i'm in my life group or when i'm in church serving. What is my intention?Sometimes ppl get used to doing the same thing everytime n often forget why we r doing it . It's the same as serving in His kingdom. I always have to remind myself that i'm doing all these for Him out of a willing heart but not obligation. Sometimes i felt disappointed with ppl's reaction, then i have to remind myself again , i'm not here to please ppl coz i'll lose focus if i'm here to please ppl.

I've learnt a lot from the ppl around me. Saw things that i'm not happy with n i'm glad that i'm not doing the wrong thing as they r. I'm going thru some struggles lately.Was talking to someone lately n our discussion deteriorated into some sort of "argument" Was quite disappointed when i saw the division in His body. Some ppl wanted to draw a line in the ministries( church n others) they r involved in. The agenda in different ministry might be different but i just don't like it when ppl r trying to draw a line there saying that u can't serve well here coz u don't know our agenda. I mean who r we to judge ppl here? Seriously if that person comes with a willing heart n a passion to serve in whatever ministry , it's bad to chase that person away just because u think that person can't understand ur agenda. What about the unity in Christ mentioned in the book of Ephesians. Christianity is not about the amount of knowledge u have about the bible , it's about applying ur bible knowledge into ur life , it's about ur relationship with Him . God doesn't see u as a mature or a good christian by seeing how much bible knowledge u have . Trust me , the Devil knows the bible better then u n me.

Was feeling heart broken seeing this division that's happening around me . Ppl might not have notice it but i knew it so well n He knows it as well. Thank God that He opened my eyes n let me see a clearer picture. The book - The Final Quest has reminded me a lot of things . It 's talking about the war these days. It's not an ordinary war but it's a war between christians itself. We often think that we know a lot about God but forgot about the humbleness that we should have n our religious spirit n self-rightousness got so deeply inside us that we r not aware of. Then the war started to began when u feel insecure that ur "ppl" will be drawn by others. But aren't we all His ppl?Are we not serving for his kindgom's sake? well.. if u r reading this ,u may not understand what i'm saying but those who understand can u pls pray for those who r under this bondage n pray for love among christians :>

The things that i'm happy about is that even though i'm facing many problems but God has been so faithful n He placed ppl around me to support me :> Special thanks to Ricky for his encouragement n willingness to spend time with us :> sorry for forcing u to watch the singaporean movie- i'm not stupid . To justin who is in US .. we miss u n i know u miss us too :>
On the other hand , i'm glad that esther yap has recovered :> CHC rocks aye ? thanks to limin who introduced me to this website :>Thank you to yi shan as well . i know ur time is very precious but u r still willing to listen to me for about 3 and a half hours :> u r a great listener n a great brother :>

A poem from Rick

2006-04-26T01:56:00.000+12:00

I stayed at home the whole day although it's ANZAC day. My forever torturing lab report had engulfed all of my energy. After having dinner with Jono ,Guang Ming n their flatmates, i've received a text from Ricky. An hour later Ricky sent me a poem he wrote n it surely cheered my up:>Lightened my ANZAC day!!

He wrote:
Oh beautiful Ching how lovely you sing.
The words you say blow me away.
Someone so kind is hard to find.
Your heart of gold will not go cold.
Your glowing face is full of grace.
Your eyes are so bright , they shine like a light.
Your lovely smile has so much style and there is more it's your cheeks i adore.
I have written what's true and it's all about you.
I know your creator who is coming back later.
You are a child of this glorious king who loves you so much beautiful Ching.

Thank you Rick for this poem :> haha.. i'll try my best to write one for him one day :P

Easter Holidays

2006-04-26T01:23:00.000+12:00

The highlight of my Hols is Easter camp :>

Finally i've got the chance to get out of welly n spend 3 days in a Marae in Feilding. The drive out of welly is always fabulous as i got to see the sea :>

Camp was great . I've got to meet up with Steve n a few familiar faces from Palmy:> i miss steve most as we spent 7 weeks together last summer for mission trip . Had a great chat with Ian n Steve about some of the troubles i'm facing . n it's truly touching that they understand what i'm up to n i can see their love just thru their listening ears n the way they prayed for me :> I'm so blessed to have frens like them :>

Another great thing that happened was that i had a chance to share the gospel with a Japanese guy. This guy was in my group during camp .On saturday night as Val asked us to go into our groups to discuss about some questions, Nigel n I have the chance to talk to this Jap guy. He had never heard about the story of Jesus , no idea why we celebrated Christmas ,Neither has any idea about easter . It so happened that we have the chance to tell him about Jesus , His death n His resurrection. Furthermore , We shared about how our relationship can be restored thru Jesus Christ. It was a bit hard to communicate with him as we have to talk very slowly for him to understand us . I took out my Chinese-English bible to show him some verses from the bible. In my heart i just wish that i have a Japanese bible with me or i can speak Japanese . But surprisingly Steve n Rubee had something in mind. Steve actually drove back to Palmy to get a Japanese bible for the guy ( it's a 1 hour drive). I can see the love of God n was so touched by what steve has done :> praise the LORD !!!We gave the guy his japanese bible n he just can't put that bible down the whole night . While i'm having fun playing chess with some other ppl i can still see him reading the bible . I've reassured him that he can ask me questions about anything in anytime :> Praise the LORD!!! I'm so glad that His name is lifted up during my camp :>

My first four weeks!!

2006-03-23T22:19:00.000+12:00

I've again abandoned my blog . I was just too busy during these few weeks n not being able to settle down n drop down a few lines here . anyway , Uni started for 4 weeks. I'm looking forward to easter holidays !!! Although i'm only taking 3 subjects for this trimester but the work load is just TOO MUCH!!! One of the subject which i'm struggling with is BIOL 361 - it's a lab paper . I'm struggling with my lab report everyweek . My flatmates knew it best as i always complain about it. I have to design an experiment about Marfan Syndrome in two weeks time . I've got no idea what to do with that!!

Uni life is more than studies. I've joined the church leadership team last week . After an one hour chat with Kellee( my youth pastor) , she suggested me to take on the fulltime crave ( young adult) leadership role . I've told her my commitment in ICF n she suggested me to give it a try on the leadership team n go back to her anytime if i felt burnt out . I've listed out my busy days - Mon:ICF committee meeting n ICF leadership training (fortnightly) , Wed: Life group or church crave leader training , Fri : ICF , Sat : Discovering Jesus group by ICF , Sun : Committed to three servises in church .

I guess i'll be fine coz i know there r ppl who r busier than me :> I'm really glad to get to know Mel n Mel from Kiamaia :> We called them small Mel n Fishing Melvyn . They r both from sg . They talk singlish all the time . As i've been away for the whole summer , i've missed out a lot of things but when i looked into Esther Yap's life i've learnt many things . As i rarely had any church life when i'm in msia( parents don't allow me to church) i don't know much about the problem in church . I've learnt that church can be very imperfect as ppl in church can stir up so many issues . I've strongly felt that no one is perfect as we r all sinners n we r all in the process of learning . Got touched by what Pastor Kong from CHC said on last Sunday " Our church is the most imperfect church ." When ppl see the outward appearance like the quantity of the ppl in church , God looks into the quality of each individuals . Furthermore , i've learnt how important spiritual boundary is . As sometimes we listen to ppl's problems we tend to share the burden without noticing n as times goes by we'll be carrying a lot of burdens and one day when the other person crashed we will also crash . Ppl usually don't look into this matter that much but it may cause a serious problem in ur growth . It will not only affect u but also affect the ppl around u . It's like a snowball effect . The more i look into how i treated ppl the more i see the room of improvement . My sensitivity for ppl's needs r still weak n even sometimes i knew ppl need help ,i'm unwilling to step out from my comfort zone to offer my help . So many things to pray for , the more i know God the more i see how different i am to Him. But no matter how imperfect i am , He still loves me , isn't that awesome?

Praise God that two of my friends came to Christ last week . Can't stop my tears seeing Carson walking towards the stage during alter call . How many hard works behind this single soul ? A guy called Bruise had planted a tiny seed in him three year ago . Carson always refuse to come to church , he won't show interest when u try to talk to him about Jesus . But yet seeing how the ppl beside him praying for him for all these years i just can't stop my tears from rolling down my eyes. The ulimate work that had done behind him was from our Lord Jesus Christ . He laid down His life for him before he was born ,before he even knew Him , He died for him . How great is our God!! There are too many things in life that i can praise God about . I promise i'll try my best to write it here :> Want to glorify His name no matter what .

A New Year in 223

2006-02-15T03:55:00.000+13:00

It has been a long long time since i posted something.So many things had happened during summer - went on a mission trip to China , had my baptism in chengdu , spent time with family , went to Taiwan for CNY with my family , uncle's death , flatmates moving out , classes clashed .....

I promise i'll update all the exciting stories i had during my mission trip in China . I gotta get more pics from my teammates whom r all in NZ now to post on my blog . The story is - i bought a USB from China n managed to saved all the photos inside it but the USB is not working !!!! So , i lost all my photos!!! Well , i can't blame anyone since i'm the one who bought it n " u get what u pay for " .. as i got it for a very cheap price ... n i've expected the worst consequences ...

Here's something i wanna share with my X-flatmate - sk
I don't know how 2006 will be .
(1)I'll always remember the times we went downtown at 9pm just to get raisins.
(2)The night we planned to wait for Mr.Chik Rui to finish his work while we went to New World n shop until we r very tired ... super slack when we tried to choose what to buy n when we tried to push the ' heavy" trolley ... super funny when i recalled that night
(3)The day we cooked dumpling n tried to lock the door n not let ppl interrupt us :>
(4) The days that u bi4 guan1 n only come out for meals but i'm so glad that u r at home :>
(5) The days that we r so free so we chat n chat n chat for a long time ..
(6)The days that i screamed n yelled when i can't finish my assignment n u were there beside me( coz i'm inside ur room doing assignment .. haha)
(7)The days we went downtown to buy yoghurt n have yoghurt for dinner for many nights :>
(8)The nights when u wanna talk to me but i wanna sleep n u always say "靖雯睡觉大过天，XX都要站一边”.
(9)The days that we watch online TV together n screamed together when we see someone on the screen n i think ah jing from the next door really think we r crazy :P
(10)The day u added someone on ur msn for me just to help me n always reminds me when u saw the nickname especially on my bday .. u stormed into my sweetdream early in the morning just to tell me what was written on the nickname ....
(11)The day i collected the package u desperately waited for from the doorstep n saw ur joyful face unwrapping the present .
(12)The day i found out u went to 73 to make my bday cake ..u even went to manna bookstore to get a great book as a present for me( u know that i really love books :> )
(13)The days that i can hear u grumble after ur exams .... n counting how many points have u lost ...
(14)The nights that i borrowed ur webcam n mic. from u n u just smiled n knew what is going on
(15) The ways we cook are quite similar n remember the three fishes that night ?? wow .... they r very delicious :>
(16) Our first apple crumble :< ... it looked so bad n we had to serve it to the americans but still we enjoyed eating it ..
(17) The bad times in blackforrest ... the burnt pan ... n the joy we had when we r freed from blackforrest into the sea of freedom :>
(18) I went to conference , camps ,retreats ... feeling bad leaving u at home ... trying to text u when i'm free :>
(19) I tried my best to share what i've learnt after camps n conference ... u trying ur best to understand what i'm saying ... u r a good flatmate
(20) ....

ya .. there are so much more to be mentioned .... sk ... don't know how will my 2006 be without u in the flat ... no one to promote good songs to me anymore .... we have to call each other if we wanna talk .. i can't just knock on the door n sit on ur bed to talk to u ... so sad .....

come n visit me more often ok ??? when u bi4 guan1 u can have my room :>

牵一只蜗牛去散步

2006-01-25T04:32:00.000+13:00

最近在读一本书，挺有意思的- 《牵一只蜗牛去散步》
故事是这样的 -----

上帝给我一个任务，
叫我牵一只蜗牛去散步。
我不能走太快，
蜗牛已经尽力爬，为何每次总是那么一点点？
我催他，我唬他，我责备他，
蜗牛用抱歉的眼光看着我，
仿佛说：“人家已经尽力了嘛！”
我拉他，我扯他，我甚至想踢他，
蜗牛受了伤，他留着汗，
喘着气，往前爬。。。。。。
真奇怪，为什么上帝叫我牵一只蜗牛去散步？
“上帝啊！为什么？”
天上一片安静。
“唉！也许上帝抓蜗牛去了！”
好吧！松了手！反正上帝不管了，我还管什么？
让蜗牛往前爬，我在后面生闷气。
咦？我闻到花香，原来这边还有个花园，
我感到微风，
原来夜里的微风这么温柔。
慢着！我听到鸟叫，我听到虫鸣。
我看到满天的星斗多亮丽！
咦？我以前怎么没有这般细腻的体会？
我忽然想起来了，莫非我错了？
是上帝叫一只蜗牛牵我去散步。

Church's family event for Guy Fawkes

2005-11-06T02:02:00.000+13:00

It was an awesome night . Went to Steve's farm.We had our Guy Fawkes celebration at the beach . I know the pics below looked nice .. but it was not as nice because of the wind n the sand .. Ya ... forget about the romantic stuff like walking along the beach with someone u love ,sitting beside the warm fire counting the stars above ,lying on ur lover's shoulder watching the spectacular fireworks ...... ahh ... it was not like that on that day!!not that because that special someone was not beside me but because of the stupid wind plus sand...

anyway, despite the wind n sand ... the celebration was awesome :> felt so excited that night hearing Elevate(youth ministry) singing n shouting for Christ.. i felt so old seeing those young ppl sitting down n shouting with energy .. ya ... i can feel their energy even when they're just sitting down ... ahhh ... i felt so so so old ....

despite feeling old , i had fun:> We danced n sang songs n screamed in high pitch at the beach !!
Still , i'm not very sure if i'm really happy deep down or i was just pretending to be happy ... i'm not too sure about that till now ... i found myself leaving others behind n step forward to the sea to take a deep breath , i tried to forgot everything n just wanted to spend time with God ... i guess i just need to go into my own solitude ... a few minutes after that , ching just went back to her frens n laughed n danced .... i'm not quite sure which is the real me ? imagine if none of my frens were there , i guess i'll just spend all my time with Him n i'm not too sure which situation will i prefer....

There are just too many obligations being among my frens ... especially when my frens go to church or join any church events ... i need to make sure that they get to meet up with KIWIS ... need to make sure that they r feeling comfortable ... on the other hand i also need to make sure that my KIWI frens feel comfortable too ... n i'm not very good in making ppl feeling comfortable .. there r just too many things to learn ...

Yesterday ..

i went out the whole day to distribute flyers coz my church is having a 3rd anniversary celebration at the opera house , it was a tiring day ... me n Esther Yap gave out about 300 flyers to halls n flats ... it was Guy Fawkes day yesterday ... i should be at the waterfront beside the beach enjoying the fireworks ... but .. when the fireworks were blasted ... i was busy sticking posters at the bus stop ... couldn't see any fireworks ... could just hear the blasting sound ... but i was very joyful deep down inside :> coz imagine ppl going to the opera house after seeing the poster :> i know i'll feel regret if i was watching fireworks coz i've something more important to do .... just imagine 10% of the ppl we invited turned up ... expanding God's kingdom n seeing God's lost sheep coming back to him :> seeing ppl raising their hands during alter call will be much more awesome than seeing the fireworks :>

May God blees all the ppl who have seen the flyers :>

2005-11-06T01:44:00.000+13:00

breathtaking~splendid~ spectacular ~awesome ~remarkable ~extraordinary ~unique ..... ya i know .. it looks like the end of days~~

2005-11-06T01:43:00.000+13:00

Heaven above us, God beside us,Holy spirit inside us~~

2005-11-06T01:42:00.000+13:00

Imagine heaven is just there ... the street of gold n the crystal sea...angles singing ~~

2005-11-06T01:39:00.000+13:00

i just love the sounds of the waves hitting the rocks ... it's like a musical ...

2005-11-06T01:38:00.000+13:00

It's a splendid view where u can't see the line between the ocean n the land ... It is the south island at the far end which looks like paradise ~~

Bday celebration

2005-10-16T01:02:00.000+13:00

Girls group photo :>

Had a really great bday celebration :> though i don't really like party but this is a very meaningful party :>

ermmm .. it's supposed to be a surprise party for me . well .. but surprise parties don't always surprise ppl as ppl r more sensitive than u think :P anyway .it wasn't my bday when we celebrated my bday .It was Stanley's bday n it was just 3 days before mine so we had a combined party !!:>

As me n stanley r christians we celebrated our bday differently :> As most of our frens r not christians , this party will be a great chance to share about our faith :> We started our party with singing some praise songs :> I said grace n started our 'feast'. After our scrumptious meal me n stanley started to share about our stories :>

Stanley became a christian a few months ago .Seeing him tranforming by the love n truth of Jesus Christ was really great:> His initial purpose to church is to learn english then he started to seek God :> After church camp he invited Jesus into his life on a sunday service :> Thank God so much for this brother:>

I shared about my stories of how i managed to get the money i needed for my mission trip n also how i became a christian :> though my walk is tough but i never let Him go coz I believe in Him ,He strengthened me :>

Thinking back the hard times i had when i first became a christian ... a song just hit me ~~Many nights we've prayed,With no proof anyone could hear,In our hearts a hopeful song,We barely understood....There can be miracles,When you believe ,Though hope is frail,It's hard to kill,Who knows what miracles,You can achieve ,When you believe,Somehow you will,You will when you believe~~~ya ... what i should do is just believe :>

ended that party with many stories n i hope that my frens around me will remember my story coz it is not just my story it's His story !!

My bday wish~~frens around me will all come to Christ ~~

n i believe it will come true one day :> because there can be miracles when you believe :>

frens that have read this post who r christians pls pray for me together :> Let God use me as a tool to draw my frens around me to His kingdom :>

My bday cake No.2

2005-10-16T01:00:00.000+13:00

This tiramisu cake was made by san san n jenny :>
San san said the cross is in the middle representing the cross in the middle of ur life .. Jesus as the center of my life :> it was indeed an extraordinary bday cake :>

My bday cake No.1

2005-10-16T00:59:00.000+13:00

yayaya .. i'm 20 ... i don't like stepping into 20 ... coz i feel so old :<
anyway ... i love this cake :> especially the name written on it :> it was beautiful :>
sk , grace n xin yee secretly made it for me :> sk n grace had to leave home ( as we stayed in the same flat :P)n went to someone else's place to make this cake .... thanks guys !!!:>

Miracles

2005-10-16T00:02:00.000+13:00

Another miracle. Somehow I’ve got $800 after that fund-raising at ICF then a fren gave me $100 the other Friday night :> San san ( a m’sian girl from Chinese church) called me during weekdays. She told me that she happened to share my mission trip in her cg n a Taiwanese girl from her cg is quite interested in helping me . I was overjoyed n had sent out emails to frens around n ask for prayers :> I went to the Chinese church to meet up with this Taiwanese girl-qiao min . We chatted for a long time n shared our testimonies of how we became Christians . Then, she pulled out an envelope she had prepared earlier from her bag , gave it to me . She then asked me about my fund-raising , I told her I need $600 more .She said ,”Now u need $100 .” YA!! She gave me $500 !! I can’t believe it …Honestly, I don’t even know this girl n we had never meet each other in our entire life …. n she gave me so much … she said God ask her to help me n this is the amount of money which God wants her to give me … amazing …. Amazing ….

I walked back from church , climbing up the forever-so-long Church Street . God spoke to me as I’m climbing up the stairs “U’ll get that $100 today .” … I told God it’s impossible for me to get that $100 within the day coz it’s 4pm … n I’m going to church in the evening n I couldn’t think of anyone else who will give me that money …. Got home , shared the good news with Grace ,Esther Yap came with the church transport . She ask me about qiao min … I told her the good news , saying that I need $100 to get to $1500 … at that moment , without hesitation Esther said ,”I’ll give you that $100 .” wow …. God is so so so real …. I just can’t imagine what I’ve heard … He is awesome n perfect :>

Esther Yap told me she has been praying about the amount of money God wants her to give me n the number 100 kept popping up her mind , then she knew that she had to give me $100 n she ‘s been waiting for the right time to tell me about it … n that evening was that right time :> it’s all planned by God !!!

I’m so blessed that I’ve got all I needed within 2 weeks … man … $1500 in two weeks… won’t have got the money if it wasn’t God’s grace :> It’s truly a miracle the way He provides :>

He gave that $1500 to me just as my life n I’m willing to give everything to Him including my life coz everything that I have belongs to Him … I’m willing to go wherever He asks me to go n do whatever He asks me to do :> n give all the glory to Him forever n ever :>

奇迹

2005-10-03T23:27:00.000+13:00

今年底我将会去中国，所以现在在努力的筹款。9月30日-我永生难忘的一天。

决定在ICF卖韩国拌饭的我，下午和淑君去买一些材料。大约3点多，婷婷一班人就来了，他们尽然来帮忙煮饭，不久后宇轩提着5公斤的米进来，感动感动。。。后来大家分工合作的把35盒的拌饭做好了，那时已经6点了。

后来，大家都到ICF去支持我。可是当晚只有20几个人在场，我手上有35盒的拌饭，要怎么卖出去呢？我整晚坐立不安，心不在焉的，根本就听不进去DAVID NEWTON所说的话。我就一直在祷告，希望奇迹会发生！！

结果奇迹真的出现了！！我卖完了35盒！！大家对于我的支持，我真的是说不出的感动！！Esther yap 和David 因为不能到ICF来，特地要我留两盒拌饭。Jess 也因为不能去ICF，特地到我家来买拌饭支持我。DJ GROUP 寸步不踏入ICF的，也去支持我。ICFers-Joel, Emma, Shanny, Rubee,Matt,Chloe…..太多名字了，每一个人的热心帮助，真是让我有说不出的感动。这个夜晚我看见了大家的心，全都是支持我的，他们买食物不是因为肚子饿或者是那拌饭好吃，而是为了支持我！！单单Chloe和Rubee就买了4盒饭，Matt买了5盒饭。
一盒饭10元，当晚筹得了350元。

饭卖完了是奇迹，看见了大家的心是奇迹，还有一个奇迹是-LEO。ICF meeting 后，他说他去年去中国教英文回来后留下一些人民币，问我要不要，我当然说要啰。结果，LEO 回家后又赶回来ICF ，气喘呼呼的出现在我的面前，递给了我一叠钞票！！对！！是一叠钞票！！我问他怎么会那么多钱，他说没有很多钱，就一千多而已。我的天啊！！我当场愣住了，百感交集，我快哭出来了，我看到的不是那一千多块，而是他的真心。我知道他铁定是跑着回家，再跑着回来把钱交给我的，即使是10元我也会一样的感动！！在抱着他的刹那间，我明白了，这一切是神的作为，这又是一个奇迹！！

当晚我一共筹得了575。50 纽币，我当晚睡不着觉，因为这一切都太美好了！！

真的要感谢我身边所有的人，尤其是珉祯，珉祯这位大厨在煮饭前已经1天没睡觉了，真不知道她哪来的精力来帮我，珉祯，没有你的话这一切都不会发生！！谢谢你！！

上帝真的对我太好了！！给了我许多的祝福！！感谢主，因为在神万事都能！！多少独自流泪的夜晚，只有上帝看见; 多少失落的时光 ,只有上帝明白。在我觉得全世界都不了解我时，上帝说：“放心，我在你身边，我明白，我不会让你受到伤害。”这世间还有什么能胜过上帝的爱？没有！！

房间

2005-09-27T16:54:00.000+12:00

珉祯今天念了一篇文章给我听，非常感人的一篇文章！

房间

在半梦半醒之间，我发现自己在一个房间里。这房间并没有什么特别之处，只不过一面墙壁满是小小的索引卡抽屉。就像图书馆那些字母顺序编排的作者或主题目录。但是这些密密麻麻从地板伸到天花板，并且似乎向各个方向无尽伸展的抽屉有着非常不同的标题。

　　当我走近这面墙壁时，首先吸收我注意力的是名为“我喜欢过的人”的抽屉。我打开它翻了翻那些卡片。看了几眼我马上关了上抽屉，每个卡片上写的名字我都认识，这确实让我惊诧。无需告知，我很清楚我身处何地。这个没有生气却满是小抽屉的房间是我一生粗略的记录。这里记载着我每时每刻的行为，事无巨细，一一在案，让我的记忆自叹弗如。

　　当我信手打开那些抽屉探究里面的内容时，一种好奇心混杂着恐惧令我心神不宁。有些内容给我带来快乐和甜蜜的回忆；有些则令我惭愧万分后悔不已，真害怕有什么旁人也看到了。一个名为“朋友”的抽屉就在“我背叛过的朋友”旁边。

　　题目从世俗平凡的到奇异怪诞的可谓五花八门。“我读过的书”，“我说过的谎”，“我给予过的安抚”，“我哈哈大笑过的笑话”。

　　有些标题惟妙惟肖让我真想笑出声来，如“我冲我的兄弟吼叫过的事情”；而有些则让我难以发笑：“愤怒下我做过的事情”，“我向父母咕哝抱怨过的事情”。

　　卡片的内容让我惊奇不已。卡片的数目常常让我猜测的要多，有时也有比我希望的要少些的。我被我一生浩瀚的内容所震惊。在我20年的生活里我真会有时间来记录这数千张甚至数百万张卡片吗？但每一张卡片又证实了这一事实。每张都是我亲笔写的，每张上都有我的签名。当我打开名为“我听过的歌”的抽屉时，我意识到抽屉内的容量在增加。卡片一张挨一张，我翻过两三码（一码合三英寸）后，依然看不到尾。我关上抽屉，感到惭愧，不光因为音乐的质量，更多的是因为我知道这抽屉表明我曾为此耗费过多少时间。

　　当我翻到“淫念”的抽屉时，我感到一股寒流通遍全身。我把抽屉只打开一英寸宽——我不愿探究这个抽屉究竟有多深——然后抽出一张卡。上面记录的详细内容让我战栗。一想到这样的时刻也被记录下来，我直犯恶心。一种动物般的暴怒让我无法自控。

　　一个念头占据了我的大脑：“谁也甭想看到这些卡片！谁也甭想看到这间屋子！我必须毁了它们！”疯狂之下我猛地把抽屉拉了出来。它有多长我也顾不上了。我必须把它一倾而空烧掉那些卡片。但当我把抽屉拉出重重摔到地上时，一张卡也没有撤出。我气急败坏抽出一张卡，拼命要撕毁它时却发现它坚如钢板。

　　只好认输，一筹莫展，我把抽屉放回原处。前额抵在墙上，我发出一声长长的自怜的叹息。这时我看见了那个名为“我与之分享过福音的人们”的抽屉。抽屉的把手比其周围的更亮更新，几乎未被触摸过。我一拉把手，一个不过三英寸长的抽屉落入我手中。我可以用一只手就数清有多少张卡。这时我的眼泪夺眶而出。我开始哭泣。抽泣如此深切，我的胃开始隐隐作痛，不久疼痛遍及全身。我跪在地上嚎啕大哭。我因羞愧而痛哭，因满胸满腹的羞愧而痛哭。

　　一排排抽屉在我噙满泪水的眼眶里涡旋着。谁也别想知道这间房间，别想！我必须把它锁起来并藏好钥匙。但正当我擦去眼泪时，我看见了他。不可能是他呀！不能在这里呀！哦，是谁也不能是耶稣呀！我束手无策地看着他打开抽屉看卡片。我无法忍受看他的反应。等我定住神看他的面孔时，我看到了比我更为深切的悲痛。他似乎凭直觉翻到了那些最糟糕的抽屉。他干吗非得挨个读遍呢？终于他转过身看看房间那头的我。他的眼里满是怜悯。但这种怜悯并没激怒我。我低下头，用手捂住脸，再次痛哭起来。

　　他走过来搂住我。他本可以说许多话，但他只字未说。他只是和我一起哭。然后他起身走回满是抽屉的那面墙。从房间的一头开始，他取出一个抽屉，在每张卡上在我的名上签下他的名字。

　　“不”我边喊边冲向他。我从他的手中夺过卡片，嘴里说的只是“不，不”。他的名字不能落在这些卡片上。但它确实在上面，红色的，那么浓厚，那么深沉，那么活生生的。耶稣的名字覆盖了我的。那是用他的血写出的。他温柔地把卡片拿回，悲哀地一笑继续签名。我想我永远也不会弄明白他怎么签得那么快，但片刻之后我似乎听到他关上最后一个抽屉走回我身旁。

　　他把手放在我的肩上，说“完成了”。我站起身，他领我走出房间。门上没锁。还有卡片待写。

　　我彻底醒了。

看完了后，我哭了~~

Awesome friday night

2005-09-04T07:28:00.000+12:00

ha .. had the best night this friday .. coz that awesome speaker came to ICF again ... this time he talked about Genesis2 n 3 ... the fall of man ...
well.. he pointed up a few points that i've not seen ..

1. Did God actually tell Eve not to eat from the tree of knowlegde of good n evil?Did He tell Eve or Adam ?

2. After Eve eaten the fruit, didn't Adam know that she fell? If he knows that she fell .. why did he eat the fruit after her?

3. God cursed the man in verse 18 n 19 ... highlight the word thorns, sweat n dust .. does it ring a bell ??

4. In verse 21 , God made garments of skin for Adam n his wife ... why?? Gen 3:7 points out that they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves ... They r already covered . . why did God still make them garments of skin ? Do u think that the garment of skin is still covered with blood when He put them on Adam n Eve?

5. In Gen 3 : 24 .. God sent cherubim as the guards of the Garden of Eden .. Why did God banish them out of Garden of Eden ... is there any better reason than He is angry with them n wanted to punish them ?? what will happen to Adam n Eve if they r not banished from Garden of Eden ? remember that there's also this tree called the tree of life? What would happened to them if they eat from that tree of life after eating from the tree of knowledge of good n evil ??

Ha ... have a think about the above points n u'll surely get something new out of Genesis 2 n 3 n if u don't know what on earth am I talking about .. feel free to ask me ...
n also i'll be drawing out a timeline from Genesis 5 ... i know that chapter is very boring but there's surely a reason why God wants it to be included in the bible ... draw the timeline according to the birth of each son of Adam n search for the footnotes from the bible about the meaning of each name ... n u'll get something new out of it !!!!

Ski trip

2005-08-17T21:05:00.000+12:00

AWESOME... went for ski trip during the weekend ... i've learnt how to ski .. YEAH!! last year's ski trip was quite bad for me coz i went snowboarding instead of skiing ... n i fell down all the way from the top to the bottom of the mountain .. it was a total disaster .. but it was totally different for this year !! i had great times !!!

Firstly , i enjoy my journey to Blue mountain lodge . We had Sarah ( the cool caucasion who speaks chinese to us ) as our driver ... we listened to all kinds of chinese songs n sang all the way ...

Secondly , the ppl i went with are really awesome .. sk , meiling, chik rui, aik win , dan , callum, esther , my DJ group ppl .... etc . really enjoy the fellowship

Thirdly , i felt ICF( International Christian Fellowship) as my family ... i felt so touched when i saw the guys pushing the vans ( David's n Sarah's) all together ... they just rush down n offer a helpful hand without hesitation when the vans got into the ditch or mud ...

Moreover , had a great time praying for Kristen , her dad passed away on Sunday ( during our ski trip ) , she was our committee member a few years back ... even though she is not with us .. we still pray for her ... the feeling of gathering together n pray is really good ... looking at dan n callum ... though they look totally different from outward appearance ... we had the same blood as Jesus Christ is our Lord n Saviour ... I had such feeling so strong that WE R ONE FAMILY .... felt so comfortable with them coz i knew that no matter what happened to me they'll always be there for me coz we r from the same FAMILY !!

Skiing at Mt. Ruepehu was fun , i'm glad i didn't fall down as much as last year ... n i really love this particular pic that i've taken ... Thank God for all these - Snow , friends , family n fun .

Graffiti

2005-08-17T21:02:00.000+12:00

Went to town with sk , chik rui n aik win before ski trip to buy some stuff . Passed by reading n saw a croud there . It's a graffiti competition . Aren't all these art works awesome ? Such talent that i wish i could have .
Human being is able to have such talent n creativity , how can our LORD in heaven not have these talents too? Our talents r all from the LORD ... that's why our LORD is able to create everything , things we can see n things we can't . Isn't our Father amazing ?? ermmm... wonder if i could learn graffiti from our Father when i got to heaven one day ...

Commercial Law

2005-08-10T19:02:00.000+12:00

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ChiNg: dan kill me
ChiNg:kill me
dAn says:Why?
dAn says:Dun wan lar
ChiNg:COML test tomorrow
dAn says:Bah, easy easy
ChiNg:hard hard
dAn says:No lar, easy for you and me
ChiNg:Explain what distinguishes the law of contract from other kinds of private or civil law that regulates business transactions
ChiNg:can u answer that?
dAn says:Contract law is all about contractsdAn says:ie Formation of Contracts
dAn says:Interpretation of contracts
dAn says:Whether a contract is void (that is, not legitimate)
dAn says:A contract may be void if it is illegal
dAn says:Or if it is uneforceable because it is missing certain elements to be a contract
dAn says:I don't really think vivil law really regulates business transactions except in the sense that it might have some effect on business practice
dAn says:vivl* = civil
dAn says:Like, not doing things that might be negligence.
ChiNg:oh how about private law
dAn says:Civil law gives rise to 'suits',where you can sue a person for doing you a wrong
dAn says:Privite law is civil law I think
ChiNg:oic
dAn says:Did you go to your classes
ChiNg:if two conpany sign a contract ,, then it is a law?
ChiNg:or it is just agreement
dAn says:A contract is just a document that is 'binding'
dAn says:It means that each party has made a proise to the other party, and both parties intend that those promises are binding in law
ChiNg: then if two parties sign contract how do contract law comes in dAn says:proise* = promise
dAn says:What do you mean?
ChiNg: how does comtract law regulate the private legal relationship ie contract
dAn says:I told you above
dAn says:Usually there isn't an issue, but if one party fails or refuses to do its promise, or tries to terminate the contract then the other party will take them to court
ChiNg: oh so there's where contract law comes in
dAn says:Sometimes, one party that there was no contract made, many many different reason eg they never intended there to be a legally binding agreement, the contract wasn't finalised etc
dAn says:In this situation, contract law would determine whther a contract had actually been formed between the parties, ie whther there is a contract
dAn says:Sometimes one party will say that the contract means one thing, but the other party will disagree and say it means something else. In this case, contract law will determine what the contracts meaning is, ie what the interpretation is
dAn says:Basically, entering into a contract bestows private rights on each party. Each party is saying to the other that I give you the right to seek legal remedies aainst me if I don't perform this promise.
dAn says:Does this help?
ChiNg: help heaps
ChiNg: one more
ChiNg: r treaties sources of state law
dAn says:Sometimes yes
ChiNg:so sources of state law will be parliament , statue
ChiNg:legislation,commom law , what else
dAn says:The thing is though that treaties aren't legally enforceable until the legislature 'incorporates' them into its own legislation.
dAn says:Hold on, you're confusing your terms
dAn says:Parliament is the legislature, and they make what we call 'legislation' or 'statue law'
dAn says:So existing law is statue law and common law
ChiNg: oh then is parliament sources of state law
dAn says:It deends what you mean by 'source'. Parliament makes law, so they are a source of statute law.
dAn says:But the ideas for statues have many sources, such as treaties
ChiNg:but is state law n law the same
dAn says:Do you mean statue or state, they are different thingsdAn says:damn, statue = statute
ChiNg:state law n law
ChiNg:coz my lec specify state law
dAn says:Are ou sure he didn't say statute law? Law is just a big generic term, like 'Science', or 'music'. State law refers to the law of a State. A state is a soveriegn nation, like New Zealand. State law is distinguishable from international law.
ChiNg:well the question says explain what are the sources of state law
dAn says:Then just say everything you know. International law (like treaties or covenants, things that the UN might make, like the International Declaration of Human Rights) might become state law. First a country will sign the treaty to show that it supports it, then it must change its domestic law (or state law) to match what it has promised to do.
dAn says:It does this either by ratifying or incorporating it. One means that they pass a statute that says exacly the same thing, the other means that they adjust existing law, amend statutes, and put policies in place that are consistet with what the international document says. I can't reember which is which
dAn says:Then there is the common law which comes from the judges. and most importantly statute law which is made by parliament
ChiNg:but aren's NZ law inherited from england
dAn says:150 years ago. So we started with what they already had. For a short time they passed laws for us, then they allowed us to make our own as long as they didn't clash, then they let us do whatever we wanted, then finally we asserted our independance so that there was no loner any connection
dAn says:But their common law is persuasive when considering our own common law
ChiNg:i see i kinda think sources of state law are legislation,precedent, and custom or usage
ChiNg:tell me if i'm wrong
dAn says:That's also correct, and if thats what he's told you then thats right
dAn says:precedent is basically common law
dAn says:So, statute, precedent, and custom or usagedAn says:I'd forgotten that last one
dAn says:But it's the least imprtant. Except, it will get you marks, so mention it
ChiNg:but he also says common law,statute n treaties
ChiNg:ermm but i tot they r not really the sources what do u think
ChiNg:ok maybe treaties can be sources of state law
dAn says:legislation = statute. Same thing. Common law = precedent.
dAn says:I already told you that lar!
ChiNg: oh ok ok
ChiNg: i got it
ChiNg: wow
ChiNg: who do they make it so complicated can't they just use the same term
dAn says:Hehe, this is good revision for me
ChiNg: oh good
dAn says:Well, there can be different tyes of legislation i think. It includes statute and regulations. So legislation s a slightly broader term, so better to say legislation, though statute is the major category.
ChiNg: oh so statute included legislation
ChiNg: or the other way round ?
dAn says:And common law is slightly broader than precedent. Precedent just means "the way things have been done in th past". So, when one scenario arises, if there is an earlier scenario that is similar then it tells them how to deal with it. SO precedent is a bit more specific. Common law just applies to the rules that judges make
dAn says:Read what I said lar, I said "It [ie legislation] includes statute and regulations"
ChiNg: i know already la i saw it after typing
dAn says:But they are basically the same thing
ChiNg:hey u help heaps man
ChiNg:did u study corporate law
dAn says:No, just first and second year law
ChiNg: but u do know a bit of it right
ChiNg: about the contractarian n communutarian
dAn says:I know the stuff I've told you
dAn says:Not what you just said
ChiNg:ok ,,, some basic stuff
ChiNg:private law is between individuals right
dAn says:Well, fundamental, but not basic
dAn says:Yup
ChiNg:public is for individuals n state or state alone right
ChiNg: is that the only differences
dAn says:Yup
ChiNg: ok ermm what can i write if they ask me to explain the difference between private n public state law
ChiNg: only the above things i've mentioned
dAn says:Yup, but flech it out a bit
dAn says:eg Public law regulates the relatioship between the individual and the state
ChiNg: but aren't there internal n external public state law
dAn says:I guess, it regulates the behavious of the state to itself, and also the behaviour of the state towards others.
ChiNg: but aren't all state law public in a sense that it is originated from the state
dAn says:It orginates from parliament
ChiNg: nok ya i think i know
ChiNg: dan i don't wanna study all these commercial law things
ChiNg: ah can u tell me how interesting law is n encourage me to have a heart to study
ChiNg: coz i find all these things so useless
You have just sent a Nudge!
dAn just sent you a Nudge!
dAn just sent you a Nudge!
dAn says:Law is very interesting
ChiNg:how ?
dAn says:Way more tha comm law.
dAn says:It tells us about rules, how we are controlled, why, where the rules come from and how there are valid.
dAn says:It tells us about our relationship with the state, and consequently all of New Zealand
dAn says:And it tells us also how alot of the time, common sense isn't reflected in the law, that absurd things can happen just because of a few words on a bit of paper.
dAn says:And with that I must leave you.
dAn says:Hope I helped. Bye bye
ChiNg: u helped heaps
ChiNg: i'll treat u a meal if i pass my test
ChiNg: hehe

Amazed

2005-08-06T10:05:00.000+12:00

Went to ICF ( International Christian Fellowship) yesterday .. so amazed coz i've found out something awesome from the scripture ...most christians know about the story of Abraham n Isaac right?but i've learnt about something amazing behind this story ... it is not just Abraham being fearful n Isaac being obedience ..there r more than these behind this story ...

Genesis 22 :7-8 Isaac spoke up and said to his father Abraham, "Father?" "Yes, my son?" Abraham replied. "The fire and wood are here," Isaac said, "but where is the lamb for the burnt offering?" Abraham answered, "God himself will provide the lamb for the burnt offering, my son." And the two of them went on together.
Is Abraham lying to his son ?? if not .. then where is the lamb??

we know that then the angle of God came n stop Abraham ...in verses 11-12

in verse 13 Abraham looked up and there in a thicket he saw a ram caught by its horns. He went over and took the ram and sacrificed it as a burnt offering instead of his son.
then where is the lamb Abraham mentioned in verse 8??

verse 14 So Abraham called that place The LORD Will Provide. And to this day it is said, "On the mountain of the LORD it will be provided."
the phrase will be provided ... y didn't Abraham use would be provided or past tenses ??

Did all these things above ring a bell?? well... it all means that the Lamb Abraham mentioned is neither his son nor the ram ... but it's Jesus Christ
John1:29 The next day John saw Jesus coming toward him and said , "Look , the lamb of God , who takes away the sin of the world!" n at that time Abraham already knew that God is going to provide this lamb as a sacrifice coz after he burnt the ram as sacrifice he said'On the mountain of the LORD it will be provided.'

n also it is believed that the very place where Isaac is laid is the very spot where Jesus is crucified ...it's the Skull(which in Aramaic is called Golgotha)..

aren't the above things wicked?? about 2000 years ago right before Jesus was born ...Abraham already knew about God's plan ... This also proved that the bible is written by God coz human beings r not able to write such amazing things....

Praise the Lord ... Our God is an awesome God....

累

2005-07-24T22:08:00.000+12:00

累了，我真得很累了。我把别人的烦恼都扛上身，我不行了，这包袱太重了。到底耶稣是怎么把世人的罪都扛上身的？难道他不会累吗？

心里这一道疤只有上帝知道有多深，也只有它能医治。我每一天都在为别人的事操心，我问自己-有多少次我曾静下来想想自己的烦恼, 有多少次曾静下来享受自己的“成就”？

原来长大后的世界是那么的复杂，我所做的牺牲别人看得到吗？难道我花那么多的时间做这一切是为了我自己吗？我在默默地播种，默默的耕耘。。可是我真得很心寒，我很想告诉上帝我不想干了，为什么他选择我？为什么？

此时此刻能够安慰我的就只有上帝了！！

My next step

2005-07-23T10:49:00.000+12:00

New trimester... i've seen things which i've ignored for such a long time .or i should say i've found things that i couldn't bother to care about ...
i've learnt a lot from Esther Yap (ha ... same name as me :>) ... i've learnt to care about the ppl beside me .... n now i realized that life can be so different when i'm heading towards a different direction ... i've realized that i need to care for the ppl around me .... not just praying for them when they asked me to or just have fun with them ... but God gives them into my life for a purpose .... i've started to spend my time thinking about them ... spend more time talking to them .... n pray for them name by name every night before i sleep .... as ppl know about me . i never reply text .i've changed ... i've started to send text to ppl just to ask them how r they getting on ...
i've found out that i've been spending most of my time to impress someone else .. i'm sorry that i've been wasting my time to do so ... but i'm glad in a way coz it's never too late for me to make a change now !! Thank God so so much!!

Words from the LORD

2005-07-19T11:17:00.000+12:00

"I do not revealed me power to get men to believe in My power , but to get men to believe in My love.If I had wanted to save the world with My power when i walked the earth , I could have moved mountains by pointing a finger.Then all men would bowed to Me, but not because they loved Me, or loved the truth , but because they feared My power .I do not want men to obey Me because they fear My power , but because they love Me , and they love the truth.If u do not know My love , then My power will corrupt you. I do not give you love so that you can know My power , but i give you power so that you can know My love.The goal of your life must be love , not power.So you must seek love first , and then faith .You cannot please Me without faith .but faith is not just the knowledge of My power , but the knowledge of My love and the power of My love . Faith must first be for love .Seek faith to love more , and to do more with your love .Only when you seek faith to love can I trust you with My power .Faith works by love."

Had been facing many problems , but i know that His love is powerful n He knows what's best for me . Will pray for my frens around me:>

Father's love letter

2005-07-11T09:28:00.000+12:00

My Child…

You may not know me, but I know everything about you…Psalm 139:1 I know when you sit down and when you rise up …Psalm 139:2 I am familiar with all your ways …Psalm 139:3Even the very hairs on your head are numbered…Matthew 10:29-31 For you were made in my image …Genesis 1:27 In me you live and move and have your being …Acts 17:28 For you are my offspring …Acts 17:28 I knew you even before you were conceived …Jeremiah 1:4-5 I chose you when I planned creation …Ephesians 1:11-12 You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book…Psalm 139:15-16 I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live …Acts 17:26 You are fearfully and wonderfully made …Psalm 139:14 I knit you together in your mother's womb …Psalm 139:13 And brought you forth on the day you were born …Psalm 71:6 I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me …John 8:41-44 I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love…1 John 4:16 And it is my desire to lavish my love on you …1 John 3:1 Simply because you are my child and I am your Father …1 John 3:1 I offer you more than your earthly father ever could …Matthew 7:11 For I am the perfect father …Matthew 5:48 Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand…James 1:17 For I am your provider and I meet all your needs …Matthew 6:31-33 My plan for your future has always been filled with hope …Jeremiah 29:11 Because I love you with an everlasting love …Jeremiah 31:3 My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore...Psalms 139:17-18 And I rejoice over you with singing …Zephaniah 3:17 I will never stop doing good to you …Jeremiah 32:40 For you are my treasured possession …Exodus 19:5 I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul …Jeremiah 32:41 And I want to show you great and marvelous things …Jeremiah 33:3 If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me …Deuteronomy 4:29 Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart …Psalm 37:4 For it is I who gave you those desires …Philippians 2:13 I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine …Ephesians 3:20 For I am your greatest encourager …2 Thessalonians 2:16-17 I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles …2 Corinthians 1:3-4 When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you …Psalm 34:18 As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart …Isaiah 40:11 One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes …Revelation 21:3-4 And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth …Revelation 21:3-4 I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus …John 17:23 For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed …John 17:26 He is the exact representation of my being …Hebrews 1:3 He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you…Romans 8:31 And to tell you that I am not counting your sins …2 Corinthians 5:18-19 Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled …2 Corinthians 5:18-19 His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you…1 John 4:10 I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love …Romans 8:31-32 If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me …1 John 2:23 And nothing will ever separate you from my love again …Romans 8:38-39 Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen …Luke 15:7 I have always been Father, and will always be Father …Ephesians 3:14-15 My question is…Will you be my child? …John 1:12-13 I am waiting for you …Luke 15:11-32
Love, Your Dad. Almighty God

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Thank you.. yes,YOU!!

2005-06-18T10:57:00.000+12:00

yummy butterscotch n velvet cream !!!yeap ... that's what i bought for myself after my torturing ,annoying n stressing exam !! yeah !!i'm free now :>
wanted to say thank you for those who have been praying for me ... mum,bro,shan,jen,tony,sk,esther,ICFers, my DJ group n the people whom i left out mentioning :P ... i'm so glad that i have ppl around me who support me a lot ... ppl who keep telling me i can do well ,not to worry n lot's of comforting stuff ... wanted to thank sk most for cooking for me during my exams ... it really saved lots of time for me n allowed me to study more ..n i'm also very glad that she has been beside me all the time ... telling me just to focus on my studies n has been waiting for my exams to finish though hers finished one week before mine .. she didn't want to let me feel bad by saying how relax n how happy she is ... but she accompanied me when i'm studying n doing everything she can to help me :>sk ... thank you so so much .... further more .. i wanted to say thank you to those ppl who help me up for my assignment which is due on exam week :>ppl who help me up with the research - sk . jenny , chik rui n grace ... n also shan who help me up with the references :P ... hehehe... he slept very late just to help me up ... thanks !! how can i ever repay these ppl that helped me ?? thank you is just not enough to describe my feelings .... n there is someone i wanted to thank most -God !!
thank you Lord ...Thank you Jesus ... thank you for walking with me all these while ... walking with me thru my trials .. n thank you for the peace n comfort u gave me when i cried ... n thank you for being there to hear me complaining n blaming ... n thank you for all ur guidance .. thank you for being with me during my studies n exams ...thank you for all the difficult things n difficult ppl in my life... n thank you for sending all these caring n loving ppl beside me ... thank you so much Lord ... thank you for sending ur Son - Jesus Christ to take our place on the cross !!!:>
n i just can't stop thanking Him !!!what else can i say other than thank you? is there something more that i can say ??

my desk n bookshelf at new flat

2005-06-06T14:33:00.000+12:00

wow.... it has been such a long time since i updated my blog ... i know i have to update it before i have too many things lagged behind... YS said that he so feel like deleting my blog coz i haven't been posting stuff...Shan says, "finally,until how many years?".when i said i'm going to update my blog .. hehehe... being very very lazy lately....
this is a pic of my desk ... the same desk i'm using when i'm writing this post hehe... the same desk i use for watching my TVB series n taiwanese program:>my second fav spot in my flat(n of course my fav spot is my bed!!!)
i love my bookshelf too ... a place where i can nicely displace my books!!!heheh... thanks to Tony who sold the shelf for me n i'll take the shelf in good care when he is away in Taiwan!!

Cheese cake made by ting ting ,diana n me!!

2005-06-06T14:26:00.000+12:00

YEAH!!oreo cheese cake ... this is the first self-made cheese cake of my life... have to remember this cake forever:>simply scrumptious!!

how did this cheese cake happened?? well... it started on chick rui n ting ting poping by my flat ... dragging me to their flat to make oreo cheese cake ... oh man... my initial plan is to study for the whole afternoon .. but ended up making this cake ... didn't even touch my notes which i brought along with me ... sign....

but..i had a great time in everton .... had dinner there... chat with ting ting n diana for a long time :> but still the cheese cake was the main focus of that night ... after 4 hours in the fridge (yeap... 4 hours!!!) wow.... out came our creation!!!the cheese cake with a heartbeat ...~~well... it seems that the surface of the cheese cake was moving up n down ... ermm.. no idea why... n we ended up talking ,discussing n debating about it for quite some time until we notice that the cake had melted a little.. n we have to store it in the fridge again n the conclusion is - we don't know why the surface moved .... silly aye?but we had a great time!!

chik rui came back with supper from great india -a place where he works ... heheh.. what a night .. dinner ,cheese cake then supper.... aii.... we figured out that's too much food in a night n started doing exercise(taught by teacher xin yee ) n learning some martial art moves ( by master isaac:P)... spent a great night together!!

heheh... still feel like eating this scrumptious cake again !! sk ... our plan !! we will make a cake together after our finals !!!

2005-06-06T14:20:00.000+12:00

YS' cheese cake

The Law school

2005-04-27T17:35:00.000+12:00

this is the building i wish i was studying in .... the law school but too bad i'm a science student ...:<>

the lazy me finally went to my biotech class today ... after meeting up with a few ppl for MSG discussion i decided to go to class!! yeah!!i made it!!what a record for me!! i skipped my biotech lec 7 times ... wow ... so lazy ... but i can get notes from the blackboard what ... n the lec is not really about biotech ...the technique ....but it's about biotech in society ,from maori point of view ... i felt super bored!!! anyway ... didn't regret for going to class today ... coz we had an interesting discussion about things u take them least acceptable , neutral or most acceptable....

1.Adding a gene sequence to a tomato to increase its flavour
2.Cloning a pet dog
3.Genetically modifying an ornamental flower to create a new colour-purple carnation.
4.Putting DNA obtained from a huia feather into a similar bird to clone -'bring back' - the huia
5.Adding a gene to commercial rice variety to produce Vitamin A in the rice
6.Transplanting a pig heart into a human being
7.Modifying a cattle gene so the cow produces less lactose in its milk(providing a new milk brand)
8.Injecting embryonic stem cells from human foetus into another human being to treat motor neurone disease
9.Modifying a commercial wheat variety so it is resistant to spraying on herbicides
10.Altering the genes of an apple so it stays crisp
11.Genetically modifying the NZ kauri tree to allow it to grow in a different climate
12.Modifying E.Coli in the lab to study a human disease

From my point of view-
Least Acceptable:2,6,9,11
Neutral:4,10
Most Acceptable:1,3,5,7,8,12

i personally think that No.6 sounds so wrong!!felt gutted ... so disgusting!!!but there r ppl in my class who put it under most acceptable.... isn't that interesting???
i wonder what will other ppl think about these 12 things??ermmm....

ANZAC Dawn Ceremony of Remembrance

2005-04-26T15:57:00.000+12:00

hardly had enough sleep these few days ... still manage to wake up for the ANZAC dawn ceremony .... made a huge effort to wake up at 4:30am ... this YS suggested to go to DAWN but what happened at the end?? got his text around 4:45am -"sorry girl, i think i'm not going! so u can cont to sleep la, (",) ". ... What??!!! this lazy guy here suggested to go there but ended up sleeping!!!i'm all dressed up .... not to waste this good opportunity ... me , grace n sk went to DAWN .... huge effort !!though it's still autumn but it feels like winter here ... wore 4 layers of jerseys.... went to the war memorial for DAWN , but why dawn??

"At this hour , on this day ,Anzac received its baptism of fire, and of the immortal names in history.We who are gathered here think of the comrades who went out with us to battle but did not return.It is fitting that we should keep this dawn vigil together , in remembrance and gratitude .We feel them still near us in the spirit.We wish to be worthy of their great sacrifice.Let us , therefore , once again dedicate ourselves to the service of the ideals for which they died.As the dawn is even now about to pierce the night , so let their memory inspire us to work for the coming of the new light in the dark places of the world."

They shall grow not old,as we that are left grow old;
Age shall not weary them,nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun and in the morning,
We will rememeber them.

a meaningful service aye??though it's freezing in the wind but it's still worth it !!
love NZ anthem so much !!

God Defend New Zealand -English Version
God of Nations at Thy feet,
In the bonds of love we meet,
Hear our voices, we entreat,
God defend our free land.

Guard Pacific's triple star
From the shafts of strife and war,
Make her praises heard afar
,God defend New Zealand.

Men of every creed and race,
Gather here before Thy face,
Asking Thee to bless this place,
God defend our free land.

From dissension, envy, hate,
And corruption guard our State,
Make our country good and great,
God defend New Zealand.

felt the presence of God strongly when i sang this song along with 3oo ppl .... yes .... God defend NZ ... though i've been here not more then 2 years .... i just simply love the environment n ppl here... the fresh air , the windy welly(don't really like welly to be windy:P)... these special things can only be found in NZ!!

The parade ended ... they marched past the War Memorial to Pipitea Marae.

---The end----

The piano that made everything changed

2005-04-25T00:56:00.000+12:00

The greatest joy is not owning the piano but is the story behind how we managed to get it into my room n how God spoke to my heart with this old but very classic piano.
I'm having a hard time for a Discovering Jesus group which i've started up two weeks ago,we(leaders as in three of us) waited for 1 hour but no one turned up ... feeling so hopeless as we r all well prepared but why no one came?Went thru the lowest point of my life ,feeling so sad deep within my heart but when i tell ppl how is it going with my DJ group i happened to say'oh... not very good...'with a smile on my face but a wound in my heart ,only He knows how painful it is ...
Prayed to Him every second when i see this deep cut in my heart ,got encouragement n support from friends n prayers..
I'm still holding the faith that our God is a Provider n he will send ppl to my group... but my faith is too small ... God talked to me thru the whole progress of carrying the piano...
Sunday morning ,didn't get transportation from church me n my roommate grace decided to go to evening service.. jenny called up saying we can go get the piano(it's free anyway) anytime ..feeling very excited we called three guys (guang ming, isaac n ys)to help up... 6 of us carried the piano all the way from Kia Mia to Carlton Flat(hahah... sounds far but it's just on the same street actually:P)but still it's more then 30 houses away n it's carrying the piano uphill...3 guys n 3 gals n the piano on the terrace....hard core.... about 15 houses away from my place we just can't move on anymore...n at that very moment we happened to stopped in front of my fren's flat ... me n grace ran into their flat n asked for help ... YEAH!!!4 more guys helping up!!! hahah... we don't even know two of the guys but anyway with their strong arms ...muscles...biceps...mission accomplished!!!I felt so touched by their generosity n most importantly God told me that He knows what i need ... as He sees the need of helping up with the piano why can't He sees that i'm longing for ppl to come to the DJ group ... n He is more eager then i am to have ppl in the DJ group ... n as He cares with such a small matter like carrying the piano can He not cared with the huge thing like the DJ group???
My faith for the group became stronger n i believe nothing can stop God from loving the ppl in the world ....
DJ group started a week later .... 8 ppl came .... some r new believers n some r non-christians ... we had a great time together discovering Jesus!! ppl asked all sorts of questions ... i can see the curiosity of ppl about God... never felt so great!!!
had an awesome discussion , spent more then an hour answering ppl's question (the group normally runs for 1 hour) ... man... isn't God great??? who can ever stop Him from expanding His kingdom??Just give everything to Him n He will provide for He knows whar's best for you!!
i'm still praying for His blessing upon this group n praying for the wisdom to be able to give ppl a simple n understandable answer... may the Holy Spirit give me the wisdom.... n most importantly,this DJ group is not my group but His group!!

God is good , all the time
God will make a way where there seems to be no way...

He rocks!!!!

The Great Painter

2005-04-09T20:26:00.000+12:00

took this pic ages ago .. woke up at 6:30am one day ... felt like going back to sleep again but couldn't catch my breathe when i saw the sunrise.. started praising God for this wonderful scenary ... isn't that awesome ?? i started to imagine that heaven is at the brightest part of the sky ... isn't that gorgous thinking that the sky looked different everyday ,everyhour , everyminute , everysecond... can all this be just a coincidence?? no way!!! there has do be a supreme being out there .. God is so great!!! everything He created is simply beautiful ... how can i ever thank Him for all these ??? i guess God wants us to view each day as a different day coz He coloured the sky with various colours each day ... n it's not only a different day ,it's a new day ... a new start ... as i see the sunrise i said to myself "today will be a brand new day ... another day to praise Him for His great works" .. start your day with thanksgiving n u'll find urself changed ... at least i've changed a lot by God !!! :>

a day of releasing -specially for sk

2005-04-09T01:52:00.000+12:00

felt so bored today ... went down town again ... a release time for sook kuan i guess ...went to A-mart n new world as usual (yeap .. no surprise:>) n the three of us (me , grace n sook kuan ) bought heaps of stuff(mostly food .. yeap .. no surprise again hahah ) ermmm .. had dinner at cha ... food there was quite nice ... sook kuan enjoyed it a lot ... grace ate a lot too ... look delicious in the photo right?? hehhe .. sk took the pic ....

my chest X-ray

2005-04-09T01:44:00.000+12:00

well... this is my X-ray ... heheh ... the first X-ray i had in my life ..nah ... nothing serious .it's just for my medical checkup for student visa .... oh ... but the doctor said i had abnormal skeleton n soft tissue ... not a big problem i guess .... anyway i'm still healthy:>

2005-04-06T17:27:00.000+12:00

cookies or coal????

cookies or coal??

2005-04-06T17:05:00.000+12:00

feeling bored during holiday .... heheh ... me n grace decided to make cookies again (yeap... second time).but it turned up worse than the first time ... man ... which step went wrong ??? ha ,we ended up blaming the flour ... gosh .. is that how the way we learn for our mistake ?? while .. who cares as long as it is still edible or is it??just hope that it won't get worse in the future...

2005-04-06T11:51:00.000+12:00

sunny morning in front of weir ..yeap ... my last day as a resident of weir

1cross+3nails=4given

2005-04-05T23:51:00.000+12:00

well... this is sort of an important moment for me ... writing my first blog in my life... have been wondering how many first time will i still have in my life??? i've passed thru my first day at school ,first day driving,first day saying goodbye to mum n dad ,first time staying alone in NZ,first time making cookies,first time losing someone important... i've always enjoyed my first time .... coz it'll never be the same .. even though sometimes it hurts but the feeling will always be with u and makes it so unique.....
have been so blessed by God for giving me this life... to explore thru the greatness of His creation on earth ,to meet those awesome ppl He had prepared for me,to do the things He wanted me to do ,and to love everything He gave me no matter they r good or bad...
love my journey with Him!!
1cross+3nails=4given .. how can we ever fathom His love for us??dying for someone u love is great enough,but He died for everyone ... including the ppl who hate Him,ppl who don't know Him ,ppl who don't even care who He is.... i've always wanted to yell out to public "DO U KNOW SOMEONE OUT THERE DIED FOR U ?U MAY NOT KNOW THAT PERSON BUT HE LOVES U SO MUCH THAT HE DIED FOR U JUST TO SAVE U!!"
For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son ,that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.JOHN3:16
have always been wondering what is love???how do we define it??well ... i guess the answer is there ....God bless!!!

hard time learning korean

2005-04-05T23:08:00.000+12:00

Had finally made up my mind to learn korean... thx to green and grace's encouragement ... i've always felt so envy seeing ppl talking in korean .... wanted to have the ability to do it one day :>
but still being chingwen,felt hard out learning those make no sense and don't know what they mean korean words ..
why on earth do i want to learn korean??ha .. i don't know ... i just simply love korean .. the food ... the drama series(oh yeah ... they r awesome) ....
had memorized all the vowels and consonants but still can't pronounce those words correctly as grace don't even know what on earth am i talking..... sigh......
my aim for this year is to be able to chat with ppl in korean... is that possible??? i doubted seeing my results for these few days....:<